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Friday, December 03, 2004
5:29 AM
weird
ahhh...i feel strange, most of the time i feel strange. With the new found freedom of nothing tying me down...i can't adapt....i feel useless and uneeded...things that once appealed to me now fades to nothingness, i find picking up a book a tiresome chore, continuing my unfinished story something to be avoided....simply put...i am just hiding in my shell most of the time, unwilling to change, self-confidence cracking. This is so not supposed to be what i had in mind after the 0's...i was supposed to have fun, love life..now i wish everything was back to normal...so contradicting my thoughts are. Is what i writing making any sense, don't think so....just wanted to pen my thoughts down for a little comfort.....i need someone to steer me back in the right direction, get me back on the road once again...this self-depreciation is suicidal, i can't help but feel this melancholy every instant...whether i'm laughing or just sitting still.....nothing brings me peace now except prayers and stray cats...i'm losing it...
* A confusin and sad entry today *